A Year Ago Today

A year ago today is a day of remembrance. After 5 miscarriages 1 from 2013 and 4 from 2014 I sat in a Walmart bathroom stall. With tears flowing from my eyes as I looked at the test that read positive in bold letters. Seth was in the salon getting his hair cut for wrestling that night, I didn't know what to do or say from all the losses we had experienced I was tired of getting mine plus his hopes up. I was tired of all the failed attempts that said we weren't quite ready to be parents just yet. I wanted to tell him but then again I didn't. After about an hour I couldn't take it anymore and I said oh by the way you may or may not be a daddy sometime next year he asked if I was sure and I said no but we would find out. So I waited about a week before I called Dr. Jones to schedule an ultrasound. In between the time I was anxious I believe in the first few weeks I took over 20 test as all the previous pregnancies had ended just around 6 weeks. Our app was scheduled for October 13th just two days before my 25th birthday. We went in and there our little peanut was I was just 7 weeks along but in my eyes that was the longest I had ever carried I was blessed. I cried for days and just prayed that God would let me keep this child. Little did I know there was actually two little munchkins in there lol. But anyways today is a day I will forever hold dear in my heart